I like to think that I lead my life without regrets; if I had the opportunities for do-overs I would not want to take them. Of course this is an idealistic wish and I do often make regretable mistakes but in the long-term view of things, I think I'm doing alright. But when it comes to last week, I'm slightly torn. Just like Eileen, I'd want to do the wedding all over again. But this time, I'd do it as a spectator.
I know it sounds all mushy but I really do feel like our wedding day was the best day of my life. I think I speak for Eileen when I say that I don't think we've ever felt so loved and it bums me out that there wasn't more time in the day to enjoy everyone's company. Everyone's generosity -- both time and money -- is so humbling that I think I fail every time I try to express my true appreciation for everyone. So again, thanks everyone for making it such a memorable day/weekend for us.
As with many blogs before this, I'm going to cut this one shorter than I originally planned. But I will end with this and it's because I do regret not getting Eileen a real card as part of my wedding gift to her. (Spoiler alert -- as my brother mentioned in his great toast, my macho-ness does occasionally take a back seat when Eileen is around. This is one of those times.) Prior to the wedding, people asked me how I knew Eileen was the one I wanted to marry. I don't really know why I love her so but she is the woman I can't imagine living my life without. We had a weird courtship and took longer than it probably should have and if you asked me, "Would you do it over again?" I'd respond, "I guess." But in reality, if it took a thousand times or a thousand lifetimes, I would. But I think I'd give up on the 1001st try. That's just absurd.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
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this is what I wanted to say...
ReplyDeleteas many parents like me know, one of the things that break our hearts is when our child's heart gets broken. The first time I knew that Jeng's heart was broken was when we received a call from him from a police station in Barcelona (the last leg of his European backpacking trip). He was hopelessly asking for police help to recover his backpack stolen from him at an internet cafe on La Rambla. The backpack was filled with little souvenirs he bought along the way, all the pictures in his digital camera and my treasured Sony digital videocam. I know that this really broke his heart and it surely broke mine. He completed the trip nonetheless. The second time, or so I thought, his heart was broken was because of Ei. I learned from Elaine's wedding toast though that Ei broke his heart at least five times! Thanks, Ei, for not breaking his heart a sixth (or nth) time. And so now you are where you both are.
Finally, i know it's cheesy but it's true -if Ei can only love Jeng half as much a he loves her, they will have enough love to last forever.
My best wishes and love to both of you.